Although Khaeli became Twilight Vanquisher last night, she spent much of the weekend feeling pretty vanquished.
As an initiate in the guild, I feel a bit like an understudy (no, not one of those understudies. One of these ones…), waiting for the star to falter so I get my turn on stage, worrying that if I ever get a chance to play the part that it’ll have been so long since I rehearsed that I might have forgotten my lines. Kaleyen has been given a role to play, and I’m very proud of him. But I’ll admit, I did have this little Matthew Broderick moment, thinking, “Why is everyone so crazy about my spouse? I mean, yeah, great fashion sense, but I thought I was the star…”
Joshua: Shall we play a game?
David: Love to. How about Global Thermonuclear War?
Joshua: Wouldn’t you prefer a nice game of chess?
I spent most of the last few days leveling alts, getting both the druid and the DK to 74. While Kaleyen and Khaeli moved through the Northrend methodically, completing the quest achievement for each zone before moving on, I don’t feel compelled to repeat everything with my alts. As I’m sort of leveling them simultaneously, I am taking different approaches to doing so, in an attempt to minimize burnout and boredom. Even though I’ve specced and geared her as a bit of a glass cannon, Khiiya is a plate-glass cannon (har-har) and is pretty hardy, and so she’s questing her way to 80. While I’ll look for a group when I have a quest to complete in a dungeon, I am perfectly happy just soloing with her. Khrii, however, is a resto druid and soloing with her is terribly slow. While Khiiya is out in the world, Khrii sits in Dalaran. She dutifully completes the cooking daily then offers to heal instances.
There are, of course, a few questlines that I’ll complete on all my toons, as, despite the repetition, they are too good to miss: the Wrathgate series in Dragonblight, for example, and the Sifreldar and Sons of Hodir quests in Storm Peaks. Khiiya and Khrii both got the Veteran of the Wrathgate achievement this weekend, and it was interesting to run through the quests with such different characters (in terms of their class abilities and in terms of the personalities I’ve subscribed to them). When Kaleyen and I did the questline, it was shortly after the release of the expansion and there were at least half a dozen or so other toons that fought in the Battle for the Undercity beside us.
This weekend, Khiiya was alone with Wrynn and Jaina, which made it more of a skirmish than a battle, by my definition at least. But she mustered a battle-cry nevertheless and joined in the fray. There was only one other player when Khrii ran the quest, a hunter who was irritated she wouldn’t heal his pet. The poor kitty kept dying as pets don’t get the health buff that players do, but the silly hunter kept reviving it and sending it into the mass of abominations to die and die again. Khrii didn’t feel much like moonfire-spamming or healing; she simply autofollowed Wrynn, mimicking his ridiculously slow walk while pointing out to Jaina that while the RP walk was fine for rendezvousing in Goldshire (Jaina, you ignorant slut?), it probably wasn’t the appropriate speed for an invasion of the Undercity. I amused myself by chatting with Jaina; the hunter with the dead pet didn’t find me remotely witty. “You’re pretty unhelpful.” I wanted to respond with the standard “huntard” slur, but as my Unholy DK suffers from incredibly horrid pet management, I felt like “baddie” insults would boomerang.
I felt like a “baddie” a lot this weekend. And I did feel “pretty unhelpful.” I originally intended to write my Monday post on “Assessing a Discipline Healer: Raid Healing as Disc” to give you some indication of the source of my frustration.
/cue 80s music
All the leaves are green
All my friends are gone
I’m livin’ in my hometown
I can barely get along
I feel sorry for myself
That’s an easy thing to do
I feel sorry for the world
I feel sorry for you
Yes I am a pitiful sight
I can’t even get one thing right
I know just what it’s like
To be ridin’ in the rumbleseat
Yes I know just what it’s like
To be a big time rider in the rumbleseat
Being assigned to raid heal by another disc priest in our Naxx run was a bitter pill to swallow (I outgear him for spellpower and crit, but you’d never guess it based on my performance as a raid healer). But good initiates swallow, amirite? Being sidelined for the guild’s Sartharian 3D run — well, that really sucked, especially since I was told to wake K- up from a nap so that he could join the raid. Torn between being incredibly proud and insanely jealous of him, I paced back and forth while the guild attempted the fight. Then my invitation came, along with a whisper from the guild’s resto druid: “LOL DO NOT DIE TO FLAME WALLS OR FISSURES!!!!” I replaced a healer who was the proverbial moth-to-the-flame-wall and was assigned to raid heals again, much to my chagrin; but hey, I didn’t get caught in a single blue circle or red flame. And in the attempt after I joined, we did it. “‘They’ did it,” feels more accurate, but Khaeli has the title now that says she was there when “they” did so.
I chatted briefly with the raid leader afterwards about my healing assignments and asked him point blank if I should respec to Holy. He told me to stay Disc and promised better assignments in the future. Nonetheless, I do think that my dual-spec will be Holy as, in the words of a fellow priest, “this guild cornered the market on the server for Shadow Priests for Sunwell.” Translation: if you’re an understudy as Discipline, you’re the understudy’s understudy as Shadow.
The sun is coming up
Just goin’ to bed
I combed my hair with my pillow
Still got some dreams left
Tomorrow is a new day
Gonna make these dreams come true
I’m gonna believe in myself
I’ll tell you what I’m gonna do
I’m gonna stop puttin’ myself down
I’m gonna turn my life around
I’ll be ridin’ high
With my feet kicked up in the rumbleseat
Yeah we’ll go for a drive
And we’ll be singin’ shotgun from that rumbleseat
Yes I’ll blow you a kiss
And we’ll be ridin’ big time in my rumbleseat
As K- raided last night, I switched on the iPod and shuffle gave me Mellencamp’s “Rumbleseat.” I don’t shake the iPod and ask it a question, but sometimes it does feel like an updated Magic 8-ball. And “Rumbleseat” was a good song to hear. The song moves from self-loathing to security, and after our raid, as Khaeli sat with Kaleyen there at Krasus Landing (in true Sarah Jessica Parker style, he just had to show off his new drake, eh?) I felt my mood make the same switch.